Voorgoed In Onze Harten

Happy Birthday, Matthew.

I miss you every day.

I have missed you every day since the last day I saw you.

Today you would have been 28.

Maybe everything would have been different for us now.

Maybe things would still be the same.

Perhaps I would still be a holding pattern,

waiting for my life with you to begin again.

But we will never know.

Maybe this year,
the shadow of the past will let go of my future.

I hope you are at peace

& that you can give some to all of us who are missing you.

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"When I said I love you,

it also meant I love you more than anyone loves you,

or has loved you, or will love you,

& also,

I love you in a way that no one loves you,

or has loved you, or will love you,

& also,

I love you in a way that I love no one else,

& never have loved anyone else,

& never will love anyone else."