Voorgoed In Onze Harten

Happy Birthday, Matthew.

I miss you every day.

I have missed you every day since the last day I saw you.

Today you would have been 28.

Maybe everything would have been different for us now.

Maybe things would still be the same.

Perhaps I would still be a holding pattern,

waiting for my life with you to begin again.

But we will never know.

Maybe this year,
the shadow of the past will let go of my future.

I hope you are at peace

& that you can give some to all of us who are missing you.

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"When I said I love you,

it also meant I love you more than anyone loves you,

or has loved you, or will love you,

& also,

I love you in a way that no one loves you,

or has loved you, or will love you,

& also,

I love you in a way that I love no one else,

& never have loved anyone else,

& never will love anyone else."

Saturday

I wish I were here:

[Mt Hood Meadows]

Snowboarding with my roommates on opening day at Meadows!

 Instead...I am working in the lab.

Sigh. The life of a grad student :]

xoxo

Summer Grows Cold

Trees.

Anyone that talks to me or follows me on Instagram

will know that I am dumfounded by the trees here.

I have never seen such colors!

Truly amazing :)

i must say, Oregon sure is beautiful.

As expected, i do miss seeing the sunset over the Ocean 

on my way home from the lab,

but this commute to/from work makes up for it:

 Taken bright and early from the OHSU Tram

xoxo